oh did i tell you

Ohhh. Did I tell you that...

1) Phillip visited me a couple of nights ago. In my dream, he was asking me to borrow my maxis phone. I said no, and I asked him why. Guess what he told me...he misses me and he wanted to call. and he was afraid of being alone down there. Alahai syg, jgn takut k. You'll make new friends. Sooner or later you'll get used to your new life. My prayers are always with you. In case if you miss us, come visit us k. I miss you a lot too. Sometimes I browse on your photos and smiled. but most of the time I cried. I know you miss us the way we miss you, but be strong Popo. I am stronger if you are. We will meet each other again InsyaAllah. but until the time comes, we must move on.

2) I got a job from AEON. Management Trainee position. Of course, I rejected.

:)

In Loving Memories

No words can describe how I feel. 

No gesture can describe how I act. 

No feelings to describe such emptiness.

I would cry as much as I want, but that wouldn't make you back in my arms.

I am glad. I am so glad that I had loved you and had taken care of you.

I am so happy to be able to make you lived happily.

I am blessed to meet you, to keep you and to feed you.

You know, I had promised to get you a purple collar for my wedding.

I suppose you don't need that anymore.

But hey sayang, you do know in heaven you can request for anything right?

So go ahead and request for ikan tongkol masak kari =D

Go find yourself running here and there just like you always do.

 You can play hide and seek the way you played with us.

You can have more collars in different colours (but we still think red suits you best).

You can drink a gallon of water as you wish!

You can also catch thousands of rats as you want!

But sayang, if you miss us, come visit us k.

My bed is always open for you to sleep.

You can sleep with your three best friends Batito, Cheebo and Picharn.

And of course, I will be there to cuddle you.

One thing that you should know, I always love you. Always.

You will always have a large spot in my heart.

15 July 2012

Rest In Peace Pilip

5 years old

 

Sweet Tooth

I wasn't a sweet tooth before but I am now.

I don't realised how it begins. Normally I don't eat sweet foods like cakes, candy, kuih, ice cream and I would usually ordered mineral water.

But now, sigh...I just can't seems to stop! 

My current obsession is CHOCOLATE. Let it be chocolate itself or chocolate cake.Every single day I eat one piece of chocolate.Oh God why -__-"

 

I am afraid of having a major health problem in the future due to my food consumption.

Diabetes, kencing manis, kidney failure, batu karang, high blood pressure, heart attack and worse, cancer/tumor.

For the record, I am a 23 years old girl, with an normal BMI and have lots of flabby fats underneath my skin. I am so lazy to exercise! When I was in Form 3, I'd took an hour for a run everyday. I had a very good stamina back then. But to repeat that now seems quite impossible! Whenever I have the mood to go running, I ended up with lots of excuses not to! Oh God I felt super bad.

I have a new resolution. I know it's not new year yet but why must wait for new year to start a new resolution.

Why suddenly wants a major change? Because lately, I started to appreciate the value of life. Life is short. So make the full use out of it. By that means, being sick is not cool. Being fat is not cool, being too thin is not cool. Being HEALTHY is super cool. That means, salad is cooler than McDonalds, mineral water is awesome-er than smoothies, jogging is more exciting than watching tv. .

Let me break it down into a few points to get you clear on why I started with the new resolution:

1) Hospitalisation is costly

2) I don't wanna burden my husband taking care a seriously-ill wife

3) I want to enjoy life with my loved ones with sweet memories

4) I wanna be there for my children's graduation day

5) I wanna be there whenever my husband needs me

6) I wanna be there on my childrens' wedding

7) I wanna contribute to the world, environment and society

8) Physical beauty starts from healthy living life-style

9) I wanna take care of my parents and parents in-laws when they grow old

10) I am not ready to leave the world yet, perlu memperbanyakkan ibadah kepada Allah SWT

11) Ok ok, let's make it short, I JUST WANNA LEAVE LONGER

So, to summarize it all, my new resolutions are:

1) To eat moderately

2) To exercise!

3) Avoiding fried foods and sugar-based foods

4) To watch CALORIES