Life through my eyes

I think....I'm in a state of depression and happiness that can make me go crazy!

Ok ok don't panic friends. It's just that I'm having an emotional breakdown lately. You see, I am so scared of growing up! I have reached the age of 23 and mainly my issues were all about making decisions. And all the decisions were so damn-serious-kind of decision. It's not like choosing chocolate over vanilla ice-cream. It's beyond that level because it's now involving other people. When I'm in the office for example, all my decision has to take into consideration of what my bosses want, and what my colleague wanted me to do. It's even difficult for me to decide what time to go back home because I understood it well that my team is pushing their best beyond the boundaries to finish all the assignments especially when the MPlan is nearing and as for me, my work is done for the day. How can I go back home knowing my team is staying late in the office? But even if I stayed, I couldn't do much help either. See my dilemma?

Talking about the office, guess what, I'm finally here for 6months! which means my probation period has ended. But wait a minute, I still haven't receive any confirmation letter yet! oh dear! Does this mean I am not confirmed? hurmm. I talked to my husband about it, he assumed that my boss has forgotten and I should remind him once he comes back from his one week holiday. 

Aneway, I received a lot of questions from my friends which include, 

"How's married life?"

"How's work?"

Well, to be honest, married life and working life has been a huge part in my life now. I spent a minimum 8 hours per day in the office and the rest of my day is spend with my husband. Going to the office is not my cup of tea. Seriously. First thing that I hate is the long journey to reach office from home. Believe it or not, I spend 1.5hour-2 hours driving from Bangi to Glenmarie, Shah Alam. And another 1.5hour-2 hours to reach home from Shah Alam. Driving a pesona also didn't help much. Pesona's fuel consumption is very high. My husband spent RM100+ for my fuel per week! Just enough for me to go to work and went back home. Furthermore, I have to bear RM7.80 per day for tolls! Yes you read it right, RM7.80 per day!! No kidding. But no, I never hate living in Bangi. The place is peaceful enough to raise a family. but..how long can I stay working in Shah Alam like this? Maybe I should find another job? maybe.haha. stress.

Second thing I hate about my work is...well, I need more friends in the team. hehe. My team is very small. Just me, Sophia and boss. I really like having Sophia around in the office because I can learn a lot from her. She's super smart, very nice, sweet and she's so pretty! I can always ask her anything.She will definitely entertain me. Btw, remember the job vacancy I posted earlier? we'll be having someone new in our team! yey! Can't wait to have the new staff around!

Ohh! I do have a few things that I love about the office. First and foremost is Kak Laila. hahaha. Yes, I am so grateful to exchange seats with Hui Shan because my new workplace is nearer to both Sophia and my boss. and....I have a new neighbour which is...Kak Laila! hehehe. It's so nice to chit chat with someone especially at work. FYI, my previous work space was so isolated! seriously it was very far from my team and no one else to borak except Alice.hehe. This place is much much much better!

Hurmm, I am seriously miss having my good friends around. especially when I really need someone to talk to. Well, in the office lets just say that Kak Laila has been quite a good company to me. We can talk about anything from marriage, husband, children, pregnancy, raya, fashion, tudungs, FOODS and more foods!

Hows married life?

It was wonderful. I come home to my husband and we just lie down and talk about our day. He would usually run his fingers through my hair and said. "sayang rambut awk mashamm" -___-
We had our bad days. Yes we did. Gaduh here and there but then in the end I will always went to bed hugged by my husband even if we're on a fight. The next day will depend on my mood. Sometimes I just forgot about the fight and be all lovey dovey. But some other time..hehehe.. the fight still continues.

I love times when I constantly had stomach ache and my husband will rub my tummy before sleep. Then he hugged me tightly to bed....before he steals my blanket! -_-"

I also enjoy having us time. I mean, without neither of our parents nor siblings. 

Just the two of us enjoying the day like the world is ours.